10/7/20 ^^^As I write

Today is a good day.  I slept well, I woke up early and I exercised.  That constitutes a winning day for me.

I tried to study today but suddenly fatigue sets in.  I offset that by eating raisins.  No more fatigue.

What do I want ultimately?  I want to be thin so that I can run fast.  Money is not relevant at this point.  If I make extra cash well and good.  Anything less than RM15 k a month, I just maintain status quo.  You never know what item will break down and need replacement.

It is my intention to lose 13 kg by my birthday.  I should be less that 79 kg by then.  Therefore I am willing to go though the discomfort in order for me to achieve my goal.

I should be studying but the truth is I am mentally exhausted.  I'll start at 2:00 pm.

So as it is, no more Els.  It's not working.  I should not reinforce my mania with her.  I had been crazy for the past 2 years.  7/7/20 I had expressed my feelings for her.  That's the end of it.  I have Yati as an option.

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My success is dependent on my ability to withstand hunger.  So let's focus on intrinsic values:

• Spend time to increase my competency
• Improve my physique

Back to substance and style.  I had not been chasing skirts for so long.  The 3 Cs Oath applies to all sort of cunts.  Not just Gayshas.

Ultimately, I want to be free.  So I need to be free from all forms of addictions.

The best form of love is the love for self and those who care.  Why do I want to love somebody who doesn't reciprocate my email?  It doesn't make sense.

A warrior walks alone.

I want to take it slow today.  Fuck studying.  I am not in the mood.

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