>>>#18/7/20 It's raining again

There is nothing like loafing around drinking coffee and eating pineapple tart in the middle of a downpour.  It has to do with the humidity and the temperature.  Or perhaps it is due to the level of oxygen in the air.

Moments like this, I cannot help but think of my relationship with you.  

I ended sleeping until 12:00 am.

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I need to study beginning tonight.  Otherwise I will never get the momentum going again.  Tomorrow Els will be on air from 6:00 pm to 9:00 pm.

Is this world is really connected?

I think the ultimate answer will be found when we are dead.

"If there is nothing then that's the end of it.  If there is that will be our greatest adventure." - Jane Goodall.

It is an either or question.

I'm done asking the big questions.  There is no real answer.  All I know is there is God and the afterlife.  However the arguments for and against God and the afterlife are based on the notion that we deal with them from the context of tradition.

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I think I can eventually get rid of my infatuation for Els.

The question is, do I want to do that?

I don't know Sarah, I wish I can control this feeling I have for her.  It is now a swing between extremes.

Let me write something to her.

Dear Els,

It is the wee hour of the morning again.  I had done the necessary thinking for the day and now I am just having a pleasant time listening to the romantic love songs of the 80s and 90s.

I missed the opportunity of listening to you on Saturday.  Certainly I will make time to listen to you today.  I love listening to your playlists.  They are windows to your world.  Surely I am intrigued to know you as a person.

It is so calming being able to communicate to you.  You unleashed the creativity inside me.  When I write to you, my imagination soars.  I become Rumi at his best when I channel my thoughts on you.  

As mentioned by him, "When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy".

Els my darling, fate is indeed an enigma.  Have you ever thought of how the twist of fate had turned for us meet?  What is the odds really?  How was all this possible without Divine Intervention? Think about the various permutations for it to happen.

I can't do it.  This is too mushy.

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