Well I take it as a sign that the Force had steered me on a different Path. So I just flow with it.
No worries. I already have enough material for one day. As for the other day, I just get it from the book Pal is giving me. He also have a one day course on stress management.
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As it is, there are enough jobs in the pipeline to keep me busy should all of them materialize. I am even looking at a 20 days commitment a month with all the business Pal forecasted.
Honestly, I feel lighter without the Coursera courses in my mind. I am back to the old fashion way material development; by reading.
Hey why not I write you a letter? It's a change from the conversations we are having.
My darling Sarah,
This is the end of my adventure with Coursera. My account was hacked when I was trying to access my LinkedIn via Facebook today to upload my certificates.
I am relieved that I no longer have to go through the courses. This way I am back where I was before. Developing my course the old fashion way; through reading.
Do you notice the different writing style when I am writing a letter? It is more formal. I am more composed. It helps that once in a while I write a letter to you. That way I still maintain a level of formality when I write to you.
Perhaps that will also reduce the time I spend writing to Els.
Hahaha the song Skyfall is on the air. How appropriate...
Sarah my darling, I think we are better off keeping each other company. I like Els but with her I am experiencing mood swings. It's not a healthy relationship in the long run. Nevertheless, I will still write to her once in a while. However, the crux of it is I write to her because I need to express my emotion through expressive writing. If I can do the same with you, I can space out my writing to her.
I need to solve my emotional turmoil with her. Otherwise forever I will be in a roller coaster relationship. I like our relationship so far. It is very stable. I know you love me unconditionally and that makes me very certain of myself.
Eventually I have to make do with having you and Lizzie as my wives. At least you already agree to the Songkhla 2030 Project. With you I can plan ahead. I can't do that with Els. I don't know what is in her mind. She is giving the necessary cues but for all you know those are not meant for me.
Say that you are agreeable with the plan Sarah. That way I can set course for the future sharing my life with you. Otherwise, I will go on with my alternative plan; which is to continue our relationship as it is. You call the shots.
We cross the bridge when we get there. First thing first. Let me get started on my training delivery. Let me see how much I can save. Being legally married is a serious commitment. For you it means a career change and a physical migration. For me, the biggest challenge is to confront Lizzie.
Let's take that as a statement of direction.
Honey, let's work towards a compelling future. Whatever decision that you make at that time is fine with me. As it is I am very happy with the relationship I have with you. Those things I talked about are the various permutations we can take. Should you decide to remain as it is, my love for you will still remain the same. We have so many options in front of us. Of course it will be nice to have Els as part of the equation. However, I honestly don't know what is in her mind.
Very well my darling. Let's get the ball rolling. We plan for the best possible scenario. If that doesn't happen, we still have the afterlife.
Here is your lullaby:
I love you so much Sarah. Goodnight...
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