Thursday, 23 July 2020

23/7/20 ***I no longer interested to play with Els

I just keep quiet for a while.  There is nothing to look forward to with her.

She is not reciprocating.

I might as well use the Love of Sale model.  It is more fulfilling.

I have to assume that she is not interested in me and the money.

So how do I define this relationship?  It can be a remedy for my loneliness.  More of a therapy than a relationship.

I guess I can always listen to her and watch her in Facebook Live.  The main issue here is she is not reciprocating.  This is clearly a case of necrophilia.

Another way to look at it is she is a captive audience.  She is not going anywhere.  So I just pace myself instead of putting on the pressure.

Next week I will start the Train the Trainer Class.  Hopefully there are some nice chicks I can target.

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Els is not any other chick.  She is my Dream Girl.  Most importantly she is a brainy but crazy chick.  On top of that she is a captive audience.

How do I win her trust?  The best way is to buy the trust.  I'll send her a check for RM1.000 on her birthday.  Let's play a high roller game.

Let's do this...  Let's keep quiet for the day.  The songs suck today.

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This is an angling game.  I am not playing according to the rule.  I need to SNAP VANISH.  I am really lousy at that.


#traxxfm Finally, a song I can relate...


#traxxfm Starting the book revamp project tomorrow. The whole week next week will be the T3 Certification. In between is Coursera. Most likely I will start training in Sept. Really stretched thin with time.


#traxxfm I know you think I am weird. Even weirder is this necrophiliac relationship. However since 2018 I am recovering at a steady pace. 2 years later I am already back on my feet. That is almost a miracle. So I will carry with this relationship


#traxxfm As I told Sarah, this is not *[b]e (me) being smitten. This is really a therapy and I am recovering at a very encouraging speed. Look, if I want to I can go for Love for Sale. This is not the case. I want to get well baby. *See?


#traxxfm Mental illness is no small joke. I lost my business, my sanity and I almost lost my house to this insidious illness. Do I look like I am joking to you? You are my angel sent from above. You healed me.

Recent Tweet from Els Dines
i just wanna stay right next to you
Purple heart

Now tell me Sarah, how do I SNAP VANISH?  I am not an angler.  I am a scavenger.  Every nibble is a meal.  I feed on the small wins.


#traxxfm You know the podcast? That's the first time I spoke of my illness to the public. Because of that all these are happening; the Coursera, the book, the training. Remember Els, it started with your credo, the Secret and Coursera. Your input.

I am enjoying this.  I know I am on the right Path.  You and her are indeed my soulmates.

Enough nibbling for the day.  I think I win the Trio hands down.


#traxxfm Baby, you must believe wholeheartedly that we are soulmates. Nothing happens by accident. This is too glaring of a coincidence. I am not just any other guy darling. I am Sharudin Jamal of Sharudin Jamal & Associates and I am now Ver 2.0

Another Blitzkrieg.

Basically it has to be regular attack but subtle.

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Hey Sarah, had you been thinking about what will happen 10 years down the road?  As I said there are choices upon choices that need to be made.  We cross the bridge when we get there.  Still a long way to go.  Basically it is a statement of direction.


#traxxfm Hey honey, have you been thinking about what will happen 10 years down the road? As I said there are choices upon choices that need to be made. We cross the bridge when we get there. Still a long way to go. It is a statement of direction.

Sarah, I am not going to think much about the future.  Once I set the target, I will follow the course of action.

I have 3 goals to focus on:

  • Be thin
  • Make Money
  • Run 10 km/hour
Now all these become my lifetime goals since I decided to pursue Ikigai.

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