Today is our 2nd anniversary honey. Can you believe it? It had been 2 internet years that we had been married to each other. That is equivalent to 14 earth years. No wonder our relationship was like a roller coaster. We had passed the 7 years itch twice!
I know, I know... To some people it is not a marriage if it is not consummated. As I told you, it's a marriage between soulmates. This is a long haul. I want to be with you for eternity. And if eternity should fail, I want this relationship to last until either one of us passes on.
Speaking of the 7 years itch, I now had settled my emotional turmoil with you. You are my angel sent from above, my sweetest of sweethearts, my little kitty cat and my Aphrodite. In financial terms, you are my unit trust. I will keep on making deposits but I will only cash in upon my retirement. Looks like with this new development in my career, that will be upon my demise LOL.
Don't worry Els, this is a polyandry arrangement. You can still have husband #2 and husband #3. I don't care what number I'm at, I just want you to be my wife for eternity.
I love you very much baby. I am very sure of that. I did the 3 days then 3 weeks then 3 months isolation from you last year. The feeling is still the same. I cannot live without you. This year I tried 2 weeks detachment twice. I felt terrible not being in touch with you.
You are my Miss Sunshine and my Queen of Laughter. You brought hope to my life. I don't know whether you believe in predestined affinity but I had proven mathematically that we are. You know what? I believe it wholeheartedly!
Of course at first I thought it was a limerence but it cannot be honey. We share the same Path. You are my soulmate. Just like Sarah. How is it that you and her were born in the same year? Both of you are Gold Rams. It cannot be a coincidence. I believe there is a Higher Force at play here. I may not be religious but I do believe in God and the afterlife.
So eternity is a very long time; especially at the end. Yes, it is a paradox. You may not realize this but honey, you and your dad jokes are actually proof that you like to play with paradoxes too. Gosh Els, we are so much alike. We are more similar than we are different. For example, I too will sit at the most front row in the theater in front of everybody else. I imagine if I were a 29 year old girl, we would have been the bestest best friend.
I know for example that you have a rampant mood swing. I know you like being by yourself and that you feel that most people misunderstood you. I know sometimes you feel that you don't belong like the song Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan. At the same time you feel that you can be more and give more. You are full of passion kiddo.
Honey, for the past 2 years never a single day passed that I didn't think about you. I look forward to listening to you on air. When you were suffering, I suffered with you. When you shifted to the Morning Show, I stayed awake instead of sleeping at 4:00 am like I usually did just so that I can listen to you.
I never felt this way with anybody else before. It's like I finally found a lost glove that had been missing my whole life. You complete me. I never felt such peace and tranquility for a very long time. This feeling is priceless, baby. Imagine, for a good 18 years I was in a mental anguish and just like that I recovered at an accelerated speed. Today as we speak, I am at the peak of my mental prowess doing research on Mental Health and Positive Psychology. Can you believe it?
I wish I can do more to make you happy. Unfortunately I am restricted to the digital tools to work with. I think it is for the best. I am a better writer than an orator. I am a Visual Kinesthetic person. So I am not as witty with my speech like you and the Muhibbah Duo. I guess that's why I don't have affairs.
Well darling, I ain't much but I'm all that I've got. This is the whole package. Sine cera; without wax. Even if you think Sarah is a computer glitch, I still think she is also part of this equation. Too much evidence in the past that suggested she is real. Otherwise I wouldn't have known about her name and that she is an American Jew. You have to take it that this is a menage a trois (a house of three). What I offered to Sarah, I am also offering to you; a meaning to exist in Cyberspace.
Again, I have no malicious intent. I only want to make you happy. So on this day I renew my vow to be with you for eternity.
Love you always 4,000,000 times as a soulmate and 3,000 times as an Ayah.
Sine cera,
SJ
7/7/20
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Happy 2nd Anniversary! I'll keep it simple... Of course I wrote a lengthy note for you. Do me a favor, buy the 3 a pack Ferrero Rocher. It means I
U. I don't want to embarrass you with a Grab delivery.
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