15/7/20 ***Trying my best not to take Nicorette

I have decided to quit Nicorette today.  It is already 5:17 pm.  That means I had not been taking Nicorette for 17 hours.

If I can quit cigarettes, I can quit Nicorette.  Today I feel really lethargic.  I was in no mood to exercise and I slept the whole morning.  In the afternoon I was ravenous.  Luckily I just had yong tau foo.

In the moment of decision my destiny was created.  I almost had a burger today.  Then I remember my goal to lose 13 kg and weigh 79 kg in 9 weeks.  I also remember the reason why I don't want Nicorette - I wanted to improve my gut microbiome.  I think it's working.

I think I am experiencing nicotine withdrawal.  I feel a slight headache.  I'll cut coffee to once a day.

I should reduce all forms of addictions.

My mission now is to hit 79 kg in 9 weeks.  That means:

• Not taking rice and bread
• No sugar either
• No processed food
• No Nicorette
• Only drink coffee once a day
• Eat apple, and moringa for lunch
• Eat keto meal for dinner
• Drink plenty of water 
• Sleep at 11 pm

I feel my body being cold.  I need to wear jacket in the afternoon.  The weather is slightly gloomy.  

The headache is still there.  Either it is nicotine withdrawal or carbs withdrawal.  

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Adele had lost almost half of her weight:

I can withstand hunger if I don't eat rice and simple carbohydrates.  The trick is to avoid from being hungry without having to eat a lot.  The answer is OMAD Apple.

That's what I shall [] (call) this new concoction:

[x]Moringa [x]Apple [x]Dark Choc 70 [x]Black Coffee 8.00 am [x]Chicken/Fish/Meat [x]Mixed Veges [x]Butter

I am monitoring the effects of eating this way.  I think I am doing OK.

Basically, to hit 79 kg by my birthday.  That is 13 kg.  I need to be patient and persistent.  This is my 2020 worthy ideal:  79 - 63 - 57.

79 - The first milestone, 2 months on my birthday

63 - The second milestone - end for Dec 2020

57 - April 2021 - 9 months

I think I nailed it with this new formula.

I need to monitor my hunger pang.  If I can skip lunch the better.  However, as it is the formula is just nice.  Otherwise I'll get ravenous like just now.

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After dinner I had the urge for Nicorette.  I salivated a bit.  I think I can survive today without Nicorette.  I can survive not contacting Els too.  Both are very alluring but I can control the urge.

Tomorrow is a better day I'm sure.  I got to shake my addictions like I shake off cigarettes.  Eventually I got to curb the urges.

With addiction, it's better to quit two addictions at a go.  The dopamine dependency is pretty much the same.  The best part is it gets weaker by the day.

All I got to do is break the addiction.  That will be within 2 weeks.

If I can quit Nicorette now, that means I quit one month ahead of schedule.

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Now is to see if I can lose 13 kg in 9 weeks.

In addition, tomorrow I got to start studying again.  I had not been putting my mind on the studies for the past 2 days.  I had been focusing on losing weight.  Today it's all about shaking off Nicorette.

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Hey I should be proud of myself.  I managed to stay away from dope since Sunday.

The lamb sure tasted good.  The tryptophan is kicking in.  I feel great.

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