13/7/20 ^^^Yes yes yes the Winning Formula

I dreamt I challenged Kadir for a joust using radio antennas.

That's a good sign.  Kadir is a positive input in my life.  I always like his simplicity.

So this morning I managed to wake up at 6:30 am.  Definitely I will follow the Winning Formula and exercise.

Today is a great day.

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Can't do it.  It's raining.

Today I am 1 kg heavier than yesterday.  This is due to water retention.

I still feel the urge to smoke dope.  I am better off chewing Nicorette than smoke dope.

I'll shower at 8.00 am. 

What is today's goal?

Well the Winning Formula is to do IF and to avoid rice altogether.  I must lose 13 kg in 2 months.  I must remain positive.  I must be patient and I must be persistent.

I am old and poor.  The last thing for me [] (to) be is fat.  Being thin is the pillar for my success.

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I should avoid Els as if I am avoiding cigarette and dope.  All these are part of the 3 Cs equation.

Now I am training my body to depend on less dopamine.  Definitely no 3 Cs if I want to get rid of Nicorette.

I'll take a long shower, dress nicely and spray my best perfume.

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This dopamine void is getting on my nerve.  I have the urge to eat nasi lemak.  I got to break this addiction.  This is the true breaking the habit.  From now to the day I quit Nicorette is the real challenge.

I need to withstand this urge for 2 weeks.  This is part of the carbs craving aka dopamine withdrawal.

All the things I did for the past one year are nothing more than my body reaction to dopamine.  I need to stop reinforcing this dependency:

• Dope
• Els
• Nasi Lemak
• Carbs Craving

I need to condition my body to a lower level of dopamine.  Otherwise I will always be fat.  The only allowable dopamine surge is music.  For the mean time, I still chew Nicorette.  Eventually I need to let go even that and adjust to the new norm.

I should get my dopamine hit from exercise.  Hedonism is really bad.  It turns me into an addict.

I am already a Nicorette junkie.  I need to withdraw all these by 21/8/20.  If not forever I am a dopamine junkie.

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My mission is NO MORE ADDICTION especially carbs addiction.

I want to be thin.  That is the best revenge for me to show off.

Let's aim for 79 kg.

My condition could be worse.  I could be suffering from schizophrenia.

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