I even have a 5G network for my laptop. Oh darn, the 5G requires a strong signal. I cannot get it from the study room.
Speed test indicated that I can get up to 25 Mbps speed on my 30 Mbps. That's more I like it.
Today, the Muhibbah Trio is going live on Facebook. I can get a closer look at Els and her red hair LOL.
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I won't Tweet Els today. I think I just email her.
Actually when I am not in hypomania, I don't have the urge to contact Els. So I can say that my attraction to Els is part of the illness.
Hang on, I feel like having a hot chocolate.
OK, I just did that with some wheat crackers.
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I am totally relaxed now. I can think clearly too. The hot chocolate and crackers did wonders to me.
So what do I think about when I am level headed?
I think of coming out with an excellent course on mental health. I think of earning a living again. I think...
Well I think I'll do away with Els.
I should start living my life. If I want to write her an email, I simply write.
After watching the Facebook live I think I am better of not waste my time with her.
She is not comfortable with me.
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As long as she is not rejecting me, I am fine. I do not want to blow my only option communicating to a girl. She is the my only creative outlet. Whaddaheck...
Actually that is not entirely true. I can always write to you. What is the appeal then? None other than interactive radio.
I should stop acting crazy though with these beliefs about my path is aligned to her. She is just a chick.
I want to watch TV after this.
Later baby...
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Just don't give a fuck.
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