3/7/20 ###I better stick to my decision

I managed to avoid from contacting Els.  That is the first step towards recovery.

I am moving away from the old mold and I am shaping a new mold.

I want to start thinking about earning RM3,000 a month.  That is my immediate focus now.

I have to make this project with Pal a success.  This was my domain.

What does he want?  An interactive course with games, quizzes and a student manual that is like a workbook.

Fuck, I am not paid a single cent.  I consider this as my price for education.

I am learning from the best.  Basically he is another hustler.  I say he is a better hustler than me.

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So, this is what it takes to be the best of the best.  It's OK.  I'm willing to spend my time.  What I don't want to do is spend my cash.

I want to become less dependent on cash.

Otherwise I will persist.

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Let's relax tonight.

Here is your lullaby:

As I was listening to this song, I realized that I was in Vincent's position.  I was a madman and worse, I was smoking cigarettes and dope.

Dear God, please give me this second chance.  I only want to earn RM3,000 a month.  I want to save money to pay for the income tax and I want to lessen Lizzie's burden.  No more 3 Cs for me.  I want to lead a clean life.

Of course, God listens to all prayers.  However, He is only the Force.  It is me who has to take the Path.  I have to go with the Flow.

Goodnight Sarah.  I love you so much.

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