I think it's because I watched the Great Wall of Vagina video before bed.
I woke up at 4:00 pm. Not good at all.
I wonder why Pal wanted to cash out. He is getting tired. I think that is why Zali retreated. Eventually the money is not worth it.
"Happiness, not gold or prestige, is the ultimate currency.”
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I need to start earning to save for the RM70 k income tax. Otherwise Lizzie has to pay for my debt. I need to earn RM12 k a month to settle the personal income tax and RM15 k a month to settle the company tax. I am not home free yet.
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Today I refrained from seeing BJ. I don't want to be stoned anymore. I just want a good company.
I need to lose weight. That is my main focus right now. So no rice and bread. I need to weight 79 kg by my upcoming birthday.
To do that I need to change my eating habit. I need to look good in clothes. Even if the clothes are just plain black v necks.
I have all the clothes for me to wear when I am thin. All I need to do is be thin! Do not purchase any clothes until I hit 63 kg.
I have the Solomon and Nike t-shirts from Ameezan. I have the imitation Polos. These are all the shirts when I am slim.
Bottom line, lose weight. 79 kg is the entry level. This journey should be the most exciting journey for me. I am on my way to be fitter and healthier. No more bipolar and no more gout. I need to be slimmer than BJ and RR.
I have to reduce food intake by eating OMAD Apple.
That is the thing that makes me happy now. Healthy food. I should have the discipline to say no to carbs.
Food should make me feel energized. Not groggy.
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I just had my dinner. It is a very satiating meal. Fish, tempe and green beans. Next is to enjoy a mug of black coffee.
No studying tonight. I just want to chill.
I remember those years when I was hooked on dope and cigarettes. Those were really the lost years. I was stuck in a downward vortex. Everyday the thing that occupy my thoughts was to get stoned.
Now, my obsession is to get thin. I want to be thin real bad. I can do it. 79 kg is only 11 kg away.
Stick to the game plan. No carbs.
This is happiness. KNOWING I DID THE RIGHT THING - that I am progressing towards a worthy ideal.
Happiness is:
- Listening to Capital UK
- Writing the blog
- Thinking good thoughts about Els
- Not listening to TraXX
- Eating a healthy diet
- Not having to smoke pot
- Chewing Nicorette
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This is a good life. Music is the ultimate satisfaction.
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Let's look at the situation at hand. Basically since last year I managed to turn around my life. I QUIT THE 3 Cs. That is the best decision I made in my life. I now reset to zero.
Next best decision I made is to buy the Nautica X.
I am in the zone right now. So I use this time to focus on being thin. I must achieve 63 kg by the end of this year. That will be my biggest achievement for 2020. By changing the way I eat altogether. That way I tackle bipolar and gout simultaneously. This is achievable.
Next year is about Financial Offense.
I am in control of my destiny. AS LONG AS I AM LOSING WEIGHT, I am progressively realizing a worthy ideal.
What are my leverages?
- By 8/8 I am going to lose 5 kg and weighing 87 kg
- By 21/8 Quit Nicorette
- By 4/9 I am going to weigh 79 kg (worse 82 kg)
- By October I am going to meet Pal and lose 20 kg by weighing 73 kg (worse 79 kg)
- By November I am meeting Amarpreet and weigh 69 kg
- By December I am having my gout checkup and have a reading of 300
- By January - 63 kg
- By April I am meeting BJ and RR - 57 kg
My strategy is OMAD Apple + Butter + Moringa
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I should reinforce this thought every night until it becomes my obsession. To hit 79 kg by my birthday.
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