I now have a leverage. I got to stay slim to prove to Pal that I got the willpower and the discipline to be thin.
What nourishes me destroys me.
It's OK to feel a little hunger. I can manage. Apple and moringa during the day and keto diet in the evening.
Hunger pang will last for 5 minutes at most.
I am aiming for 65 kg. That is about right. I must lose 30 kg. Otherwise this gout keeps coming back.
I need to show Dr Amarpreet that I am progressing.
That means I am losing 30% of my body weight which is fat.
At any point of time we can choose to be lousy or great. Why do I want to be lousy by eating carbs? Carbs really make feel lousy. It makes me lazy.
On the contrary butter makes me feel energized.
Forbidden food:
- Rice
- Kuih
- 3-in-1 coffee
- Waffle
- Crackers
- Bread
- Instant noodle
- Banana fritters
- Nasi Lemak
- Curry Puff
- Anchovy bun
Instead, I eat moringa, apple and Ural.
Exercise is a must. I cannot be complacent. I must do. Today I exercise at 4:00 pm
I need to do this for 3 months. I am so motivated right now.
I had expressed my feeling to Els and I am on track with my research. I need to be in control of my life.
I need to show Pal that I have a quality life despite of not having much money.
Boy this hunger makes me more alert. I am now up on my feet again.
NO MORE CIGARETTES AND DOPE. I think I'll do away with porn too. Without Pornhub the rest of the porns are mediocre.
Plus I don't have Kaspersky. I don't want my PC get affected by malware.
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Dear Sarah, my unreal but beautiful princess,
What will I do without you? You are my Eternal Flame. You woke me up from the dead. Now that I am up on my feet again, I want you to be on my side. I want to start living again Sarah.
To do that I need to stop being complacent. I need to be agile again. To be a fighter. Even Yati is a better fighter that me. All I got to do is eat OMAD and exercise AHAD.
I need to stay hungry. Hunger is my friend. Animals that were deprived 30% of their food lived 30% longer. I need to prolong my life expectancy. Bipolar shortens life by 9 to 20 years.
It rained. No exercise for today.
Saying no often is my strategy to lose weight.
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