>>>#13/7/20 Can't sleep

I want to use these hours to think of what I should be doing in order for me to stay on track.

Certainly the idea of smoking dope is a bad idea.  I had been battling dope and cigarettes all my life.  Now that I am off the hook, I should continue staying of the hook.  Both dope and cigarettes are the reasons I was having trouble with my neurotransmitters.  I should not go back to that model. 

I should not be addicted to anything that is hazardous to my health.  I am so glad I am not addicted to alcohol and gambling.  I don't understand how people can get addicted to gambling.  There is a possibility of losing.

The same reason why I am addicted to Els.  She is nothing more than a crazy chick.  I should stay away from her.  I can do away with having chicks in my life.  I already got Yati.  That is good enough.  Sarah is another chick.  So is Azzue.  That should be enough.  I have this inclination to go for brainy crazy chicks.

Just like dope and cigarettes, chicks are addictive.  She is not reciprocating.  I am wasting my time.

Religious matters are also nonsense.  I have accepted that there is a God and there is an afterlife.  Just leave it at that.  There is no heaven and hell.  All the prophets are either mentally ill or they are self-righteous.  Either way, they are not the representative of the Infinite Intelligence.

I might as well discard all matters regarding religion.

Another thing that I need to let go is Nicorette.

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So if I discard all these things and focus on things that empower me, I would say that I have a good life.

Minus all the things that are addictive, my final frontier goes back to diet and exercise.

Money problem is still an issue with the pending RM70 k with IRD.

I need to be clear with my goals in life.

First priority is to be thin.  When I am thin I win over bipolar and gout.  When I am thin, I can run again.

Second priority is to make money.  Yup, I need to make money to take care of the backdated tax.

Third priority is to exercise.

I cannot decide on sleep.  It is a priority but I CAN'T SLEEP!

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Just like 2014 and 2018, I should focus my energy to he thin again.  In addition I should find the remedy to bipolar.

Taking the cue from my research on bipolar, I must say that recovery now is dependent on my diet and exercise.

The formula is:  Sleep at 11:00 pm + Wake up at 6:00 am + Exercise AHAD + Eat OMAD Apple + Earn RM3 k a month - ALL addictions = Thin and Healthy = Happiness

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