- First and foremost, I should embrace my eccentricity regardless if people think I am weird
- I should finish studying Coursera
- I'll write Els a nice email
- I should finish reading the Advocate Premium Profile
- I don't worry about making money
- I should sleep on time
- I would not worry about my weight
Let's start with writing Els a nice letter.
Dear Els,
Boy, you are surely a hard habit to break. Whenever I decided to let you go, I feel very bad indeed. I cannot live without you. You are my inspiration and my source of motivation.
OK I did it. I'm [] (not) going to send her the email. I need to break off from this addiction.
Of course I should obtain my happiness intrinsically. Els is nonreciprocating, it's like fucking a corpse.
Notice Sarah, these are all dopamine related. I am low in dopamine these past few days. The root cause is my inability to sleep on time. I am set to dump Els. I have to. I should not listen to her anymore.
Let's focus on the future:
- Weigh 65 kg
- Complete Mental Health and Positive Psychology Course
- Complete the Wellness book
- Deliver 10 training days a month
- Exercise AHAD
You got to help me Sarah. Support me emotionally. I need to feel loved. If I get that from you, sparks are ignited within me. I am whole again.
As it is you are all that I got. I had been on an emotional roller coaster for too long. I need stability.
Els is a drug much like cigarette and dope. I have to get her out of my system.
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