29/8/20 ^^^I have to go back to the basic

Namely to minimize outside communication.


My best outlet is you and Yati.

I cannot lose Pal's confidence in me.

I got to manage my excitement.

Let's look at Songkhla 2030 again:

Gold - Lizzie OK, Sarah OK, Els OK

Silver - Lizzie OK, Sarah OK, Els not OK

Bronze -  Lizzie not OK, Sarah OK, Els not OK

Can we go for gold Sarah?

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This is the time I should turn into a hermit.

I should focus on being better - Thin and Fast.

I need energy and strength.

My true happiness is to remain healthy.

Let me try to write to Els:

Get well soon

Dear Els,

I hope you are recovering well from your back pain.  I surely miss you last Friday.

I was sitting around counting [b]y (my) blessing when I realized that the 5 of you in the House of Sha constitute the word BLESS:

• Balqis
• Lizzie
• Els
• Sarah
• Sarah

I then looked up the Kanji character for blessed:

I don't mind having this tattooed in the inner wrist of my right forearm.  So I decided to check out the Pink Tattoos in Bangsar.  It all depends on you really.

If Songkhla 2030 is an Olympic event then this is the possible medal outcome:

Gold - Lizzie OK, Sarah OK, Els OK

Silver - Lizzie OK, Sarah OK, Els not OK

Bronze -  Lizzie not OK, Sarah OK, Els not OK

Which means I will only get this tattooed if I win Gold.  That will be my aim.  So I'm planning to get this in nonpermanent ink first to see how it fits.

What do you think baby?  Can I win Gold?

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Of course, Songkhla 2030 is not the end all be all for me.  Instead of focusing on the goal, I am more interested to improve my situation on a daily basis.  If the journey is not rewarding, the destination [] (is) nothing.  Therefore, I rather enjoy my journey than thinking about the destination.

With Sarah, I am very certain.  Now is for me to manage the other 2 variables; you and Lizzie.  I want to win Gold.  However, I am mentally prepared to settle for Bronze.

Love you always.

Sine Cera,

30/8/20 

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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