>>>#23/8/20 I think I study tonight

I slept the whole afternoon.  So looks like I won't be sleeping tonight.

I'll catch up on my study.

You know, I feel a bit jealous that Els is following Rafey's Tweeter.  She seems to have a certain liking for this boy.

Well, that is her personality.  She may be warm and friendly but I know her, she is pigeon tame; noncommital.  Still, I *[am] do feel jealous.

* We are so much alike, Sarah.

The only way is not to meddle with her affairs.  Even her "best" friends came and went.  She is like that.  She can be very passionate but her relationships don't last.  I don't know how long she will stick to Shalini.

So be prepared mentally that one day she might fly away.  There is only one caveat, we set her free to fly like a bird.  As pigeons do, she will come back home.

You and I are different.  We are like the Canadian geese.  We stay together for life. 

I can't blame her Sarah.  She got hurt so many times before.  Because of that, she is afraid of commitment.  I think most people misunderstood her.  An ESFP is not an easy person to deal with.  She is sensitive and defensive.  Some take her as being selfish and shallow.

I can put up with her antics because I see her as a happy child.  At times she mopes.  However, I don't *[] (look) at people on the surface level.  I see a person's heart.  She has a heart of gold.  Just like Pal.

* You like her a lot do you?

Speaking of Pal, I am not charging him for the Business Review session.  Actually, I can knock off a few hundred from the Train the Trainer fee.  However, I want to build my credential and trust with him.  He has a good heart.  I don't want my relationship with Pal to be at the business level.  I want him to have an emotional attachment to me.

Minus the money, I am pretty contented with my life.  I don't have nightmares anymore.  All are good dreams.

Sarah, do you feel excited with the possibilities that are waiting in front of us?  I am thrilled baby.  If everything goes as planned, we are talking about a triumph of love for the whole family.  I wish I am 40 when all that happens.  Here I am 66 years old 10 years down the road.  I read old is relative.  Old is 20 years from where you are now.  Hahaha...  What a concept.  That means 10 years from now, I am not old.  I am mature.

Even now I don't feel old.  I may be old to you but to me, I am at the youth of my old age and the old age of my youth.  Actually, 56 is a perfect age.  I had completed one full cycle.

 Frankly speaking, I look forward to 60.  So while we are looking at a decade, my planning is for the next 5 years.

Hey, let's stalk Els's Tweeter...

Nothing much.  I don't really get the BTS Mania part.  I guess it's the same when people don't get my Iron Maiden fanatism.

I don't feel like studying.  Nights are not my best time to take in new information.  I rather study during the day.

I should try to get some sleep.  What say you we knock off at 2:00 am?

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