Let say I have morning classes in the future, I then sleep at 10:00 pm and wake up at 5:00 am. Then I exercise at 6:00 am.
They say when you want to make an important decision, you got to sleep over it. I slept over the idea of dumping Els and the decision is still the same. I got to dump her.
To be fair let's wait for her input this week.
I am ready for my happy pill this morning.
This month is the read a book month. So after exercise, I continue reading Keep on Running.
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Why do I feel that there is a void in my life? That's because I am not using my ample time to earn a living. Once I make some money for myself, I will be OK.
I had the Nicorette in view. If I follow impulse, I would certainly take one and chew. However, the policy like smoking cigarettes is to Never Take Another Puff. In the case of Nicorette, Never Chew Another Bit.
I walked out to exercise but suddenly I am not in the mood. I turned back after 8 minutes. I feel a turmoil inside me. I had many minds; to eat the banana cake, to chew Nicorette, to move things from the master bedroom for renovation, to read the book, body aching. Where do I begin?
The lowest effort is to eat the banana cake. That was followed by a croissant.
I am doing all that to resist the Nicorette. Depression starts to set in. Boy, do I hate depression.
I have 2 weeks to quit Nicorette. I better do it. It's driving me crazy though.
Let's analyze the situation. Nicorette doesn't make me feel good. It's just to make me feel normal. Without Nicorette, I feel terrible. Like I am always sleepy. So to feel normal again without the presence of Nicorette, I got to cut it off my life for the next 2 weeks. Until September 15th. In the meantime, I have to break the bronco even though I have to break the pattern by eating carbs this morning.
I must have a strategy. I got to win the battle in order to win the war.
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