>>>#6/8/20 Another sleepless night for me

My thought is on this slide:

I have to seriously look at my belief system.  All the illusion of grandiose got to go.  I am too confident with what I believe in.  I need to be mindful that those things I believe are just part of a perverted belief system that's caused by my illness.

Nobody is going to believe in this epiphany:

Why I even bother telling Farha about it? 

This still holds true:

Let's look at this closely:

“Here’s to the misfits and foolish ones who think differently. They’re not fond of simplicity. They live unconventionally existing at a different level of intensity. They add elasticity and flexibility to what’s inflexibly rigid, bringing warmth to the frigid systems of existence. You can hate them acidicly, discredit their credibility or even oppose them ritualistically. Look down on them cynically, say they became great accidentally, rain on them torrentially or see brilliance academically. You can look and see density or see a lovely symphony. About the only thing you can’t do is disqualify their eligibility. Because they change history. Everything in existence moves them restlessly on to destiny backed by infinity. Their spirit is immensity, they overcome resiliently and follow their hearts existentially. Though they may be misunderstood until the next century, we see their opponents’ adrenaline as only minimally convincing, simply for a time because in them there’s a tendency for the divine to visit earth coincidentally. And while others may see misfits and foolishness we see wisdom and genius because the ones crazy enough to think they can live and love limitlessly are the ones who actually do.”

-  Curtis Tyrone Jones

Here is the main issue:  Do I follow my instinct or do I conform?

Maybe it's best that I just keep it to myself.  Nothing good comes out from telling people about my epiphanies.

So instead of publishing this in Dreams of Mirrors, I might as well publish it here:

There...  Total satisfaction.

What it means is simply, I am ready to be in the frontline to serve God and country.

So fuck those Coolers and Closers.  I am a Cleaner.  I may be divergent in my thoughts, but a[s] (at) least I am being true to myself.

I am now aware that people are scared of who I am.  Well, a Cleaner is feared.

Suddenly I feel really sleepy.

Hmmm...  That is funny.  I just dozed off for a minute and immediately after that I am alert again.

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Here is the deal Sarah.  Let's revert back to 2016.  Let's remain private.  That's the reason why we have a private blog in the first place.

Dreams of Mirrors cannot be too radical.  I need a favorable digital footprint.

I am fed up attending to felines.  Like Ameezan said, they are a waste of time and money.

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