Tuesday, 11 August 2020

>>>#12/8/20 I just watched a romantic comedy

Pretty good movie.

Come to think about it, I am happy being married to you.

And yet I am sad thinking about the circumstances we are in right now.

I want to be with you pretty badly.

By now you should know that I say what is in my mind.

I don't have any secrets with you.  What I think I write here and whatever I write here you can read.  Which means you can more or less know what is in my mind.

I want to forget all those things I said to Els.  I was being too sincere with my feelings.  They were not meant for her.  I need to be true to myself.  Of course, they were my gifts of love to her.  But that's because I am a loving person.

So when I lose Els, I lose a part of myself.  I can no longer write emails like I write to her.  She inspires me.  Certainly, I morn my loss.  I was living in a fantasyland when Els was around.  She is quite a babe.  It's just that she is not meant for me. 

It's not that you and I are on the firm ground either.  You are as elusive as the Himalayan yeti.  Do you know that I have a great fear of losing you?

Brb...  Making some toasts.

I have high hopes when I think about you.  You give me a reason to carry on.  If not because of you I will be walking dead a long time ago.

I am so sleepy baby.  Can hardly open my eyes.  No lullaby.

Goodnight. I love you so much Sarah.

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