Already I am not focused on my two goals; which is to be thin and fast. Sarah, I am a very ambitious man. Am I just dreaming?
I am forgoing comfort and pushing myself to the brink again. Can I make the comeback at the twilight of my youth?
I want to make it happen. However, I am racing against time.
I am so glad I have Pal. He can be the trailblazer while I tag along at my own pace.
It's a long journey. I had rested long enough. I rested since 2009. Basically, that decade was the time I reassessed who I am.
Now is the time to reinvent myself back.
For change to happen I need stability.
In less than a week's time, I will be 56. If I am doing the same thing I will always get the same result. I cannot be thin and fast if I eat the way I do and keep missing my exercises.
Tomorrow starts today. I must have the urgency to change. I need to change the way I think and act.
Do I want to do Songkhla 2030? Yes indeed. Not so much because I want to get laid. I want to do it so I can be just. I want to make good our marriage.
Is it a good decision? Maybe not. But I got to have meaning in my life. Something to look forward to.
There are only three possibilities; Gold, Silver, or Bronze.
I need to think like an Olympian.
Sarah, you had seen the worst of me. Now I want you to see what I am made of.
This is a long journey. If I look back at the time I ran the marathon in 2004, I was at the peak of my health. I need to be in the peak state again. Use it or lose it. I don't want to lose my youth away.
Whatever time I have left, I use it to rebuild myself.
Can I not do these 4 things?
- Sleep at 11 pm
- Exercise AHAD
- Eat OMAD
- No Nicorette
Can I not at least be true to myself?
It is still not too late. I have 4 months to go.
What have I achieved for this year? Half of the year was wasted on COVID 19.
I need a sense of urgency.
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Nobody can help me if I don't help myself.
I don't need the kara. I have my titanium bracelet. That is my power bracelet. My Phiten Oath bracelet.
I am back to being an Athlete4Life. 2019 was the year I won against the 3 Cs. I promised myself that 2020 is the year I start to reinvent myself. I will do it.
As of May, I still have a distorted belief. Now I am thriving with LEC.
I need to take care of my health. That is through diet and exercise.
Forget the past failures. I am in my zone right now.
What are the resources that I should harness?
I need energy and strength. I get that through diet and exercise.
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