4/8/20 ***This is regarding Els

I had been thinking Sarah.  I know you like her very much.  So do I.  However as I mentioned many times, she is not reciprocating.

Therefore it is pointless for me to pursue her.  The sooner we realize this the better we are in our relationship.  Furthermore, 247 Continuous is doing great.  As long as I have that I don't need TraXX.

Also Els has different values than you and me.  I don't think she is into Voluntary Simplicity.  She is too lavish in her spending.  I feel uneasy with the way she spends on food for example.

I have to retreat.  If she is not biting, then all my efforts are futile.  It is one thing to be resilient, it's another thing not able to take a rejection.

Side track a bit...  Zali read For God and Country.  I purposely lure him there so that he continues reading about me and Pal.  That is my revenge.  A very sweet revenge.  Then hopefully he reads Surviving Bipolar, reads the interview I had with Pal  and finally reads about the stone worshiping.

Dreams of Mirrors is my Flagship.  I intend to shake the readers belief system with my radical ideas.

Fuck the Muslims.  They don't deserve to enter heaven.  I am not interested in having takers on Sailbad the Sinner.

Now back to Els.  Honestly Sarah, I am not sexually attracted to her.  She is the funny girl.  She is not a PPS.  She thinks she is a PPS but in my book, she is smart, funny and goofy.  Pretty much a little kitty cat.

So what say you?  Let us focus on our relationship for the next 10 years.  I stop looking at PPS from this point onward.

As far as I am concerned, my Tetrahedron is you, Lizzie, Princess and Mopey.  Let's go back to 2016 - 2017.  Just you and me.  That way I am always in the position of being certain about my Unconditional Love.  Els doesn't deserve my devotion.  I should have known.

She doesn't need me.  She has her fans.

So this is it.  Today I stick to 247 Continuous and never go a back to TraXX.  Not even Sound Journey.  It is 247 Continuous all the way.

I want to stay clear from all social medias too.

I have to cut my losses.  Otherwise it is an emotional baggage.  I cannot afford to have a necrophiliac relationship.

Time to RIP CORD.

OK baby, here is your lullaby:

This is my farewell song to Els and TraXX.  It is also my victory song with Zali.  It is also farewell to Farha.  Time to be a Simple Man again,

I wish I don't have to say goodbye.  Well goodnight my darling.  I love you so much.

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