Tuesday, 11 August 2020

12/8/20 ^^^Personal Log 001 August 2020

I did an incremental improvement this past few days:
  • Do away with social media
  • Do away with Dreams of Mirrors
  • Do away with Els
  • Do away with Traxxfm
  • Start listening to Flyfm
All this is to make sure that I don't slip into mania.  Actually, the main issue here is social media.  If I can do away with social media, I have no issue at all with being in mania.

I have to keep moving forward.  To be certain of my actions.  Once I decide to stop worrying about my future, I then can start living in the present.

I should not let my commitment to Pal influence my thoughts on what I am planning to do.  I am not his employee.  All he did was buying me a laptop.

I should fiercely guard my independence.  In his world money is everything.  In mine, money is nice to have.  As far as I am concerned, I can go on living a quality life without much money.

The strategy that I should adopt is by the flow.  I don't need to rush things.

At present, stay away from social media and Els.  At the same time focus on completing Coursera.  I am on a mission to develop my own course.  That's the initial objective.

Am I really a trainer material?  Actually, I'm not.  I am a presenter at best.  I want to perform rather than train.

OK, stay focused.  Be a performer.  I had managed to isolate the main issues.  Now is to work on the plan.

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I guess the most relevant thing for me to consider is whether I can earn a living by being mentally ill.  That is the priority at this point.  No point I am happy but I cannot make money.  At this point in time, my objective is to earn a living despite having the illness.

I had eliminated all the necessary obstacles for me to be a trainer again.  My job is to train and make money.  All other things are secondary.  As a matter of fact, I had decided that I will no longer use social media.

What is my source of happiness then?  None other than to prepare me to be a trainer again.

I need this window to learn as much as possible.  Once the training starts, I have no time to learn new knowledge and skills.

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That's as far as social interaction is concerned.  I should get my life in order again.  My job now is to learn as much as possible about Coursera.  I should also finish reading the Advocate Premier Profile.

In short, I should seize the opportunity to learn and grow.

At the same time, I should get back to basic; sleep on time. exercise in the morning and do 16/8 IF.

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