Honey,
This is the situation as it is. Now is to make good my promise...
Love you always.
Sine Cera,
22/8/20
For the past month, the focus of this blog is to convince Els that I love her and I want to be with her in the next 10 years and beyond.
I had said my piece even to you. Having said that I am still in the gestation period. I am still studying Coursera. I haven't started developing the course and I haven't train anybody. As far as the result is concerned I have not put the pedal to the metal.
Because of that, I'm not going to spend too much time wooing you and Els anymore. I had done that. What I should do now is to focus on Coursera. Even that is not the main agenda. The Critical Success Factor is I train 10 days a month minimum for the next 10 years.
Another thing is *[] (to) get back on track with being thin.
* I'm counting on you to help me stay focus on this issue.
I know this is a topic that interests you the least. You are keener on winning Els. I take it that at this point I had convinced you and Els to go with the Songkhla 2030 plan. *No[t] (Now) that we had done that I want to focus on attaining my personal deliverables.
* Yes, I think both of you already agreed on this matter. Lizzie is not objecting to me having a side interest with you two. So what matters now is money in the bank.
I don't want to be seen as only goofing around as mentioned by Lizzie twice. I want to make it happen.
So back to changing myself if I want to change the world.
I Wanted To Change The World
When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world.
I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation.
When I found I couldn't change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn't change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family.
Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.
Now that we have a clear sense of purpose, we need to execute, execute, and execute. There must be a sense of urgency on my part. Otherwise, this is another wishful thinking. We don't want to have that. We need to move forward with certainty.I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation.
When I found I couldn't change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn't change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family.
Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.
It is a great relief to me that Els bought the idea. She will certainly add color to our marriage. You are the shy type while she is bold and outgoing. It is always the case of the pretty girl taking the lead from the funny girl. The pretty girl normally adores the funny girl. Where else the funny girl always jealous of the pretty girl. So if you can convince the funny girl[s] (girl) that she is...
* Oh... You are a funny girl too? OK then, that means we gonna have lots of fun.
When I said you are the pretty girl and Els is the funny girl, I meant it in a rhetorical manner. Personally, I think both of you are Pretty and Pretty Smart (PPS). However, I think Els is a person who is fun to be around. Not that you are boring. You know what I mean. It's just a rhetorical comparison.
So you are very comfortable with our menage at trois. Pretty much like having two soulmates instead of one, isn't it? I imagine you and Els will fast becoming best friends. If you can win over Lizzie and the kids, then we are talking about you girls having your little sorority here with Lizzie being the matriarch to us all.
I want us to be one big happy family. As Mopey used to say, our family is a pride of lions. As far as I am concerned, Lizzie is my empress and I am her samurai. I am not a leader material. In my true essence, I am a loner, I am in my element when I am alone with my thoughts. So it is better that you girls stick together while I focus on being a Nothing. That is my aim.
This marriage is not for sexual purposes either. That is based on mutual consent. I am happy to be your friend and soulmate. Of course, as the Alpha, I am proud if you can respect me as your Ayah; the Godfather of our House of Sha.
As a parting thought, do have faith, Sarah. Yes, our greater mission is our Ikigai. However, be mindful that we are one unit. Pretty much a nation by itself. You have your Circle of Influence and so does Els with her role in broadcasting. I have my National Call of Duty. Princess is another sentinel while Mopey is pursuing medicine.
Your fealty is eventually to Empress Lizzie, your matriarch, and the Great Nothingness. This woman is stellar in whatever she set her heart and mind on. And yet, she is so simple in her personal outlook. I want you to see that our family is an extension of your other family. If she is the mother to me and my kids, I want her to be your mother as well. Then our marriage will be a blessing.
She is the wife that will join me to the grave. So when we are gone, I want to leave a legacy; which is none other than a loving family consisting of you, Els, and the kids. You all will continue to be a unit upon my demise. Most likely you all will be supporting each other in your old age since none of you will be having kids.
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Baby, I had completed the most important phase of our forming stage. The email pretty much summed it up. Here is your lullaby tonight: youtube.com/watch?v=jBspOU It means Life is a Wonderful Journey. Goodnight baby, I love you so much.
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