Dear all,
Last one week has been exhilarating. I was giving my best shot in completing my assignment to the point I slept at 4:00 am every night.
Then when it came to the presentation day I gave my best shot. I did well. It was a very uplifting session for both me and the participants. I felt very alive indeed.
Then the inevitable happened. I did not sleep for the whole night the next day. Surely enough I experienced hypomania. Because of that I became disheartened and decided to withdraw from training. I don't want the same thing to happen again and jeopardize the reputation of the training company that sponsored me.
Turned out my principal didn't want me to quit. Instead of total elimination he wanted to mitigate the situation. I cried when he said that. I didn't know that he cares so much about me.
My coach, Teacher Farha was very encouraging too. Obviously there are people who still care about me. I definitely can't do this alone. Without the loving care of those with big hearts like all of you, my life would have taken a different turn.
I hope you all will continue to support me in my quest to conquer this very insidious illness. I need a break pretty bad. In the word of Perthpal, my principal, I am like a Ferrari locked in a garage. I want to go out and make a difference to society. All I need is a chance to prove myself.
Again, thank you very much for believing in me.
Sine cera,
SJ
2/8/20
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