I am who I am. There is no point denying that I have an illness. There is no point denying that I am a solitary being either. The less I interact with people the better.
I want to recluse in my own thoughts. I am not interested to blend with the masses. I am doing so only because I need to earn a living. That is my sole motivation. If money is not an issue, I rather stay where I am, minding my own business.
Here is the deal, I will only communicate with the outside world only when it is necessary. Otherwise, I will rather be left alone.
Why do I need people? So far everybody that I meet is only interested to extend their personal agenda. I too of the same category. I am nice to Pal because I want to make money. Beyond that, I will rather be left alone doing things I enjoy doing; which is writing my thoughts away.
Ideals are for dreamers. Nowadays people rather pursue immediate gratifications rather than a lofty ideal. Therefore in embracing popular ideas, I should stop being an idealist and focus on immediate gratification.
Do the things that make you happy and avoid the things that make you sad. I am not going to pursue Els anymore. It is causing me grief, Instead, I should selectively choose my pursuit of happiness.
For example, dealing with people is causing me to be unhappy. I should minimize that. That includes slamming the door on Els. On the contrary, learning something new is exhilarating. I should take advantage of Coursera.
I am not too keen to make money this year. I rather learn as much as possible since Coursera is free until the end of December.
There is plenty of time to make make money when I am well equipped with the right knowledge. Remember, this is my second S Curve we are talking about. I should plan properly for it. I should play according to my game plan. I can change the plan as it comes but as a whole, I set my own pace.
What's the point of chasing for the pot of gold if I am missing the view? I want to enjoy the scenery while pacing myself for the journey ahead. I don't want to be like the masses. I decide what makes me happy. Money is definitely not my source of happiness. It is a mean. With the money that I earn I can pay the IRD and perhaps drives a better car 10 years down the road. Other than that I can provide for my wives. However, I will not chase after money. If it comes, it comes.
My life will take a different turn if not for the blog. It seems that of all the things that make [b]e (me) happy, the blog is top of the list. I don't really need all the fancy stuff. Just me and the blog is enough to set my imagination soaring.
I think I had found my passion. Now all I need is to turn the passion into a vocation. I have yet to find the right formula for that. If I can do that, I definitely find my Ikigai.
If I look at this chart, then I say my Ikigai is training. Not so much because I want to help make the world a better place but rather to share the knowledge that I had gathered.
I don't think I am an Advocate. I am more of a Lone Warrior. I work best when I am all alone. I am not a team player.
The MBTI is trying to put people into boxes. The truth is we are who we are. I might be an INFJ but I am not interested to pursue humanitarian effort. I honestly like being on my own. However, I am a caring person to those that I love. That means I am capable of sharing my emotion with others. Maybe I am too emotional in my approach but the truth is when I love, it is loving wholeheartedly.
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