10/9/20 ###I need to ride the bronco

On man, I didn't expect day 12 to be so turbulent.

I am having an emotional roller coaster due to the dopamine void.  All of a sudden I am pissed at everything and everybody.

I was trying to experience bliss but I guess until I overcome the slump, I will feel like crap.

This is really tricky.  Nicotine had hijacked my happiness.  Now I got to balance back my brain chemical WITHOUT depending on artificially induced dopamine.  What is worse, I am on a dopamine antagonist medication.

One more year and I am off medication.

What do I need to do to feel OK?

• I got to persist the nicotine cessation

Nicotine is out of your body 72 hours after you quit smoking. Nicotine withdrawal symptoms usually reach their peak 2 to 3 days after you quit, and are gone within 1 to 3 months. (1) It takes at least 3 months for your brain chemistry to return to normal after you quit smoking.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Baby, Nicorette cessation is no small joke. Quitting cigarettes is nothing until I actually quit nicotine. I am on the 12th day. Boy, do I feel agitated.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm I am so pissed at everything and everybody today. Wow, I didn't expect quitting Nicorette is a tough as quitting cigarettes. I quit cigarettes a year ago. It was nothing because I didn't actually quit nicotine. Now is the moment of truth.

I am looking at 40 months for the brain to be free from nicotine dependency.

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By the look of things, I need until the end of this year for my brain chemistry to return to normal.

The timing couldn't be any better.  I need to stay quit if I want to forgo 41 years of addiction.

Then we talk about other things; PENJANA, Mental Health Course, and Wellness book.  Ultimately Songkhla 2030.

I got to have the right priority.  My top priority is to quit nicotine.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Anyway, I am sensible enough to say that hang on to the vision. I know it's still far but that's what a vision is all about. To me, the journey is more important than the destination.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm The vision is just the backdrop. Something to look forward to. In the meantime, I am still relying on more immediate goals and timeline. With me believing is seeing. Bear in mind that it could be both Apple and No Apple too...

With Fuzzy Thinking, it is either Apple and No Apple.

So Songkhla 2030 is either there or not there.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm In summary, depending on what you believe, the vision is either real or imagined.

Damn, I really need to fight this addiction.  It's no longer about not having nicotine in the body but rather about having to deal with a low dopamine level.

The question is no longer about whether I should have Nicorette but rather how else I can increase my dopamine naturally.

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