I tried to ignore it. But this void keeps persisting. As if the only way to satisfy the feeling is by chewing Nicorette.
If that it the signal that I am getting, then I must say that I got to keep on riding the bronco. Obviously, the message is not from my inner voice but rather the voice of Nico Demon inciting my mind to chew Nicorette.
I am surprised that it was the same pattern when I was on cigarettes before. Obviously, that's because I am dealing with the same enemy, nicotine.
My battle with nicotine is not over. Maybe I manage to quit cigarettes for the past one year. However, I never let go of the real evil behind it, Nico Demon.
If that's the case then I must say that on the 9th day I still crave nicotine.
Nicotine withdrawal symptoms usually peak within the first 3 days of quitting, and last for about 2 weeks. If you make it through those first weeks, it gets a little easier.
I must persist for 2 weeks to tame the bronco. Until then, I got to be patient with this very addictive substance. Certainly, it is the most addictive substance I even known. It is so addictive that it can create a void in my life.
Which means I am experiencing a drop in dopamine. The only way to stabilize it again is to allow the body to produce dopamine naturally. That hopefully will take two weeks to happen.
Once I pass the 2 weeks, I have to endure 3 months.
Looks like 2020 is about the victory against nicotine. I must break the bronco no matter what.
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I feel slightly depressed. That is the void. A sense of sadness due to low dopamine. I need to hang on for 2 weeks. That I need the whole 3 months to balance the brain chemical all over again.
This is a very serious task. Otherwise I never really break my addiction to nicotine. I just change the medium from smoking to chewing.
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