Friday, 4 September 2020

4/9/20 ***Can you believe it Sarah?

I am still a nicotine addict.

I didn't progress from last year.  I am still hooked on nicotine.

So nothing to do but sleep.

I keep reminding myself that this is the 6th day and I got less than 2 weeks to go.

This time when I quit, I am quitting dope for good as well.

Everything is very recent, the 3 Cs 2019, recovery from Bipolar May 2020, and quit Nicorette Sept 2020.

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I feel lethargic and slightly agitated.

I'm also salivating frantically.

Do I break the bronco or do the bronco break me?

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Oh yeah, without Nicorette, I am more somber and realistic.

I feel slightly down too.  The salivating comes in waves.  When it comes, I feel like dropping everything and chew a Nicorette.  However, I know *[that] that is just a passing thing.

* Baby, I feel so terrible about myself.  I know, if I chew Nicorette, everything will be cheerful again.  But I want to break the bronco.  I know, after 2 weeks I will be OK.

All these are just withdrawal symptoms.  If I persist, it will go away after 2 weeks.

I am experiencing a slight headache right now.

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