Eat, sleep, blog, repeat.

That's all I had been doing.  I had been doing the same thing for the past decade but I feel fine.

This time I should feel OK because I do not smoke cigarettes and chew Nicorette.

There are many ways for Nico Demon to play tricks on you.  One of them is to make you feel terrible about yourself for not having any nicotine.

This is the most desperate attempt by Nico Demon to get you to introduce nicotine in your body again.

What is happening to me now is  I sleep, then I eat, then I sleep again.  I can hardly blog.

I must say that these past 12 days, my productivity is almost zero.

I had stopped Coursera.

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There is the void again.  The feeling that I had achieved nothing.

True enough, monetary wise I had achieved nothing for the past 10 years.  This is depressing.  This makes me feel like having a Nicorette.

Such is the incitement nature of Nico Demon.

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I feel a loss without nicotine.  How long will this feeling last?

My mind is rebelling against my decision to quit Nicorette.

In the past, if I persist not tempted to cave-in to the whim and fancy of the Nico Demon, I will be OK.

The question is how do I do that?  I had indulged myself for today during lunch.  Rightfully I don't feel the need to think of Nicorette anymore.

Do I count today as day one?  This is where the battle begins.  This is the beginning of the void.

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