26/9/20 ***Cooling off is required (set induction)

 I think I cool off for a few days before sending the previous post.  It doesn't serve a purpose or does it?

I guess it is my duty to inform Rex on the matter.

Let's try a set induction to ease [] (into) the message:

Hi Rex.  I am in a moral dilemma.  I wrote a posting on the weekend to pass to you.  However, I am undecided about whether to send it because you might form a judgment.  Something inside keeps nudging me to send it anyway. 

There... I sent you this Traxxfm Gmail.  Honestly,  I'm Sine Cera and the truth has to be told.  I'm not going to dwell much on it since  I wrote extensively about it in the past.  So I suggest you exercise caveat emptor.

In the end, I am just a servomechanism and I just *[] (do) as I was told.  * Sarah thinks I should do it because it is my duty to inform you of this matter.  I did discuss it with her beforehand. 

That should do it.  After this, I retreat away from Rex and Els. Otherwise, I will be losing sleep again and my schedules [] (will) go haywire.

I am meeting Pal for lunch  I need to tell him this:

• I appreciate him as a friend - for being there for me
• I still struggle with depression especially when I quit the nicotine gum last 3 weeks
• I need to settle my income tax or else IRD will penalize my wife upon her retirement next year
• I need that RM3 k a month to be extrinsically motivated
• I am in contact with Sabiha on some potential classes 
• And I talked about my plan to marry Els in 10 years time

I think the guy is sincere although he tried to coax me into writing the book without incentivizing my effort.  I said no.  I am not willing to work for free.

This is not buttering up.  I believe he is my destiny.

Brother, you are a true heart of gold.  You live up to the 707.  That is to me at par with Matthew 7:7 (my favorite passage from the Bible) and Al Araf 7:7 (my favorite from the Quran).  You are true to your numbers.  A person destined to be great.  

This is not buttering up.  I believe we are soulmates destined to share the same Path.

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Baby, I notice one thing.  My mindset improves much after a good sleep.

I got to go honey.

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