I slept half of the day. Had a nagging headache.
The body feels cold.
The journey is 45 days. I must persist.
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The magic is long gone. All the illusion of grandiose had been replaced with the stark reality. The reality that I will end up poor and depressed.
The only way out is now. By fighting my way out of Nicorette and obesity.
That takes time. I need 3 months to stabilize myself.
Even now, I am fighting depression. When I quit Nicorette that is fighting with one major depression. When I do OMAD, I am dealing with depression, When I am resisting AHAD, I am going against depression.
My enemy now is depression. To fight against depression, I sleep.
Nicorette is a good weapon against depression but as the body build resistance, I need more and more nicotine just to feel normal. Hence, to go back to point zero, I need to get rid of nicotine and I need to keep my insulin at bay.
The truth is I need to quit Nicorette and I need to be thin.
Therefore half of the equation to happiness is to be thin. The other half is to be fast.
This is the true secret of success.
Just like quitting nicotine, the temptation to being thin is the food itself.
Hence my two biggest challenge it to STOP eating Nicorette and to eat OMAD Dinner.
Anything else is not an option. Happiness is weighing 65 kg and running 10 km/hour.
What is the price I got to pay?
Never ever chew Nicorette again and only eat OMAD dinner for the rest of my life.
That is my commitment for the next 21 years. Along with it, never eat sugar again and exercise AHAD.
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These may seem like a repetition but as I keep repeating the mantra, the more realistic is the goal.
I need to start with Personal Victory.
Once I achieve that, I can proceed with Public Victory; Songkhla 2030. Without Personal Victory, there is no Public Victory.
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How am I doing then? Today is Day 18 of the Nicorette Cessation. I am better off than Day 12. Yes, I am sleepy but I am not depressed. I am not agitated either and there is no feeling of void.
I think I take a long shower and then I read the Happy Chemicals Book.
In the afternoon, I exercise.
I decided to do away with TraXX. Listening to TraXX for 4 hours a day is a waste of time.
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I am happy with all aspects of my life right now especially with my ability to quit nicotine and to refrain from eating.
However, I am depressed because in particular I am fat and I had not earned any money since I got to know Pal.
So if I am thin and I have money in the bank, I will be very happy.
Then it is easy. As far as I am concerned, I only eat dinner. Also I don't eat sugar, cake, pastry and bread. I don't drink 3-in-1 coffee.
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