Pretty soon, I will no longer crave nicotine. I will shake off 41 years of nicotine addiction. When I shake off nicotine addiction, I will also shake off my addiction to dope and cunts.
I take it as my journey to redeem myself after 41 years.
I might as well decide today. No more dope, ever. No more cunt, ever, No more Nicorette, ever.
If I take it that I am correcting a 41 years mistake. then these next 3 months is nothing.
My only remedy is the sugarless chewing gum.
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I want to have a new mindset. I don't want to think of the business I am getting from Pal. I want to just free flow with my life.
If there is business coming in, it is good. Otherwise, I am not going to hope for anything from Pal. At least not for the next few months.
I will maintain my independence. Let's not worry about the future. All I know is I will deliver some classes for PENJANA. However, I am not going to bang on it.
I should enjoy my life right now. As it is I have Coursera and the wellness book. The rest are clouds in the coffee.
I found a way to overcome the void. By eating cream crackers. The crackers actually acted as fillers when I have a dopamine void.
Fine, I will continue to break the bronco. This is the way to do it. I supplement my body with a steady flow of sugar.
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I concluded that I got to raise above the circumstances. In the meantime, I play my own game. My game is Coursera. The book is not that urgent. Nevertheless, I got to play my own game. This is a temporary setback.
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