Tuesday, 15 September 2020

15/9/20 ***Day 17 without nicotine

As usual, I sleep a lot.

I have another 1 month to break this habit.

In the meantime, I got to do OMAD and AHAD.

I need 45 days to form these habits.

As long as I don't have nicotine in my body, I am progressing towards a worthy ideal.

Nothing less...

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This is really bad.  I feel really depressed.

How do I fight depression?

Do I keep going rock bottom for the next 30 days?

Will the Sake Technique of breaking the bronco work?

I can only know after the 45th day.

Meanwhile, I will persist.  The worst that can ever happen is I will get sleepy.

So back to the question, how do I fight depression?

I will break the bronco after 45 days.

Plenty of sleep until then.

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What is the alternative?  Start chewing Nicorette again.  That is not *a[t] (an) option.  Not after 41 years.  I will carry on for the next 3 months to stabilize my brain's chemical.

* Yes baby, I will not be a nicotine addict for life.

So there are 3 schools of thoughts:

  • A new habit is formed after 45 days
  • It takes 2 weeks to 3 months for brain chemical to stabile
  • For every year on drugs, need 1 month to recover.  Thus I need 41 months
So I had done 2 weeks, which is the shortest.  Still feel depressed.  I should extend another 30 days.

That is how tricky to shake off nicotine addiction.

I discovered the root cause of my smoking - the void created by the lack of a mother's love.

Why do I still feel depressed?  This time it is biological.  It is due to low dopamine.

The key here is to increase dopamine - doing new and exciting things:
  • Finish Coursera
  • Read new book
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