Today, after 15 days, I manage to win the battle against depression.
When there are thorns there bound to be roses. I was at the brink just now. Luckily I decided to sleep.
Remember the sake scene from Last Samurai. It will take me to the lowest pit. When there is nowhere else to go, the only way is up. Therefore I must face my pain.
So now I know, my lowest ebb is the void created by the lack of mother's love.
So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, and fuck you.
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All I need to be happy is run, eat, sleep, repeat.
Instead of trying to hoard love from my parents and God even, I decided to love my life.
This life of mine is a true gift. It is a perfect life. Live within my means and live in gratitude.
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Victory is certain. Proceed with an unsurpassed feeling of certainty.
We are crossing the Rubicon. That means we are taking the battle to the home ground.
We must finish this year with gusto. All we have is 3 1/2 months.
Now that we know who is our enemy. We will fight head-on.
Do all the things that are antidepressant:
* Sleep well
* Run AHAD
* Eat OMAD
* No sugar
* No 3-in-1 coffee
* No music
* No TraXX
* No social media
* No Tweeting Els
* Drink plenty of water
* No snacking
* No chewing gum before dinner\
Every day for the next 3 1/2 months I must N-SEEM
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