Let me chat with you for a while before picking up Lizzie from the grocery.
Basically, I am slowly coming out of delusion. I say although there are some hiccups, I am progressing well towards recovery.
Definitely, I am better off than 3 years ago when I first met you. Now I know for sure I cannot do away with Nicorette.
I hope I will improve much as time progresses. This is not an easy illness to live with. I am not whining about it nor do I want to give excuses. This is a very serious illness and I am doing my best to stay motivated to fight it.
Sarah, there is nothing more that I want than to be normal again. I was a very upbeat person in my younger days. I *[am] was a Peak Performer and a no holds barred man of action.
* Well then you know what that means. Always high in life.
Chot, my friend whom I had not met for 35 years said he remembers me as the sanguine happy-go-lucky type of person. I was like that. I was a funny guy and always positive about life. I was a fighter through and through. I wish I am young and energetic again. Without any worry in the world.
Gtg to pickup Lizzie... Later.
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At least now that I am in touch with reality again, I no longer talk about grandiose ideas. Alas, Songkhla 2030 is still pretty lofty even though I don't talk about esoteric things [] (like) the White Space and our life on the Dragon Planet.
I would say that all that was necessary for me to see what lies beyond death in order for me to make sense of my life now.
For some people, that is craziness. I would like to think that those thoughts are Divinely inspired like the posting on the Jerusalem Declaration. If I look at it as such, then I say I was chosen to receive such epiphanies.
What do you think Sarah? Am I really the Chosen One? Am I really the subset of God? Or I am really crazy.
I do another set induction for the Muhibbah Trio:
(2) I sent an email to Traxxfm Gmail to express a peculiar thought. This way I minimize my exposure to the outside world when comes to my divergent thinking. Rather than publish it in my blog, I let you read it.
On the second thought. I think I just limit to Rex. Then there is no redundancy.
My fear that people will label me as crazy is still there.
This is particularly true when I start talking about the things with regards to Sparta 4964.
Maybe I just limit my thought to you only.
I still fear that people will judge me.
But then, I got nothing to lose with the Muhibbah Trio. Maybe I add a prelude:
(1) Folks, I need an outlet to ground an epiphany that I received recently. Otherwise, I will remain unfulfilled. I did share it with @kongeu3 this morning. I need to offload my conscience.
Let's look at the posting again...
OK, I end with a closure:
(3) As the saying goes, "Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul". I just want to share this burden of knowing with the few who care. You people look like an empathic lot.
OK, now I am at ease.
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