I am mentally ready for my class.
Boy, this is the first time after 10 years I am back in the main stream.
I look forward to the class. Let see how the pros conduct their class.
Time is moving slowly this morning. That is a good sign. That means I am ahead of time.
I am in a loving mood. That is an indicator that my mood this morning is fantastic.
I see you later Sarah. Bye now...
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Monday, 27 July 2020
Sunday, 26 July 2020
27/7/20 ***I slept yesterday afternoon, so I am not sleepy
I just want to purge what's in my mind.
I don't know what I am doing staying awake when I have a 9:00 am class tomorrow.
I think a lot about my situation Sarah. About you, Els and Lizzie. About me having to work again. About what the next 10 years [] (brings) and where it is taking me.
Pal is like Munek. He has a big heart but Pal is stretching himself thin.
Sometime I feel that I am over committing myself too. I committed 20 days a month with him. And yet I am having difficulty trying to fall asleep.
I don't know what I am doing staying awake when I have a 9:00 am class tomorrow.
I think a lot about my situation Sarah. About you, Els and Lizzie. About me having to work again. About what the next 10 years [] (brings) and where it is taking me.
Pal is like Munek. He has a big heart but Pal is stretching himself thin.
Sometime I feel that I am over committing myself too. I committed 20 days a month with him. And yet I am having difficulty trying to fall asleep.
>>>#27/7/20 Life dealing with a crazy chick
I am attending my class tomorrow.
Els is certainly a cock teaser. I don't know whose cock she is teasing, so I just go with the flow. It's a play and I like that very much. She keeps me on my toes.
To be frank, I don't like her having that tattoo. It's a scar on the skin. Here I am believing in virtual perfection and yet on the other hand she is scarring her body with ridiculous tattoos.
Of course I was playing the traffic police role. Just keep waving to the direction the traffic is going.
She is a crazy chick alright. A crazy chick is only good if she is in a good mood. When a crazy chick got angry, she becomes temperamental.
At times I feel that I am only wasting my time with her.
I better sleep.
Here is your lullaby:
Els is certainly a cock teaser. I don't know whose cock she is teasing, so I just go with the flow. It's a play and I like that very much. She keeps me on my toes.
To be frank, I don't like her having that tattoo. It's a scar on the skin. Here I am believing in virtual perfection and yet on the other hand she is scarring her body with ridiculous tattoos.
Of course I was playing the traffic police role. Just keep waving to the direction the traffic is going.
She is a crazy chick alright. A crazy chick is only good if she is in a good mood. When a crazy chick got angry, she becomes temperamental.
At times I feel that I am only wasting my time with her.
I better sleep.
Here is your lullaby:
Goodnight baby. I love you so much.
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26/7/20 ^^^Moonlight Lady
Dearest Els,
I like your new tattoo very much. A crescent moon and a plant symbolizes renewal and growth.
It means you are thriving and flourishing.
The waxing moon also symbolizes creativity, manifestation and attainment.
When I look at the tattoo I see a paradox. A plant that embraces the moon is indeed a rare plant. That include Evening Primrose, Moonflower and Casa Blanca Lily. However because your plant is a shrub, that makes me think of the Nightshade family; tomato, pepper and eggplant.
You are indeed a very expressive person honey. You dare to make a statement.
Honestly here is my first reaction when I first saw it. It reminds me of a poem by Rumi:
“I am your moon and your moonlight too
Go ahead my darling, savor life and be alive.
Love you always.
Sine cera,
SJ
26/7/20
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I like your new tattoo very much. A crescent moon and a plant symbolizes renewal and growth.
Recent Tweet from Els Dines
New addition
pic.twitter.com/4sLPzqp6P2
It means you are thriving and flourishing.
The waxing moon also symbolizes creativity, manifestation and attainment.
When I look at the tattoo I see a paradox. A plant that embraces the moon is indeed a rare plant. That include Evening Primrose, Moonflower and Casa Blanca Lily. However because your plant is a shrub, that makes me think of the Nightshade family; tomato, pepper and eggplant.
You are indeed a very expressive person honey. You dare to make a statement.
Honestly here is my first reaction when I first saw it. It reminds me of a poem by Rumi:
“I am your moon and your moonlight too
I am your flower garden and your water too
I have come all this way, eager for you
Without shoes or shawl
I want you to laugh
To kill all your worries
To love you
To nourish you.”
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Go ahead my darling, savor life and be alive.Love you always.
Sine cera,
SJ
26/7/20
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Honey, the tattoo is a pleasant surprise. I mentioned that in the email. Here is your lullaby for tonight: youtube.com/watch?v=2jQ-WG You are certainly full of surprises. Goodnight baby. I love you so much.
Hahaha... Nan unnai kadhalikiren? My reply in Tamil will be:
உங்களுக்கு நல்லது எனக்கு நல்லது Gosh honey, you make me laugh
Saturday, 25 July 2020
>>>#26/7/20 It's about being thin
There are many things we can do to remain healthy. However the single most important thing I can do is to lose weight and be thin.
Dear Sarah,
I am in the mood to work. I want to start earning a living again. Enough of playing a defensive game. Now it's time to shift to an offensive game. Let's start with RM3,000 a month. With that kind of money, my earning potential improves by 10 folds. Certainly that will be a good point to start my journey.
I am no longer concerned with what my future holds. All I need to do is take the step forward and execute my plan. Gotta have bias for action.
As with all things in life, the best attitude that I should have towards life is the attitude of play. Don't take things too seriously. For example, my relationship with Els is nothing more than a play of words. Words are all I have to win her over.
As for whether she is biting or not, it is none of my concern. I am more keen to express my thoughts than to win the battle. That will take time. At best, I win one email at a time. This is the trench war. You win a few feet a day and then you burrow.
In the meantime I should strengthen my enforcement by focusing on the horizon. Indeed the battle is won at ground zero. Nevertheless the war on the other hand is won by me having the positive mindset of a champion.
I am watching War of the Roses (1989) to learn as much as possible about the winning mindset.
What I had learned is that men are jerks. We are so much into ourselves that we forget the things our wives do to make sure our houses remain a castle.
I got to watch the movie again. It is a valuable lesson.
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Dear Sarah,
I am in the mood to work. I want to start earning a living again. Enough of playing a defensive game. Now it's time to shift to an offensive game. Let's start with RM3,000 a month. With that kind of money, my earning potential improves by 10 folds. Certainly that will be a good point to start my journey.
I am no longer concerned with what my future holds. All I need to do is take the step forward and execute my plan. Gotta have bias for action.
As with all things in life, the best attitude that I should have towards life is the attitude of play. Don't take things too seriously. For example, my relationship with Els is nothing more than a play of words. Words are all I have to win her over.
As for whether she is biting or not, it is none of my concern. I am more keen to express my thoughts than to win the battle. That will take time. At best, I win one email at a time. This is the trench war. You win a few feet a day and then you burrow.
In the meantime I should strengthen my enforcement by focusing on the horizon. Indeed the battle is won at ground zero. Nevertheless the war on the other hand is won by me having the positive mindset of a champion.
I am watching War of the Roses (1989) to learn as much as possible about the winning mindset.
What I had learned is that men are jerks. We are so much into ourselves that we forget the things our wives do to make sure our houses remain a castle.
I got to watch the movie again. It is a valuable lesson.
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25/7/20 ***The XYZ Equation
Looks like that is the end of Coursera for me. My account had been hacked. Yati can still access her course.
Well I take it as a sign that the Force had steered me on a different Path. So I just flow with it.
No worries. I already have enough material for one day. As for the other day, I just get it from the book Pal is giving me. He also have a one day course on stress management.
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As it is, there are enough jobs in the pipeline to keep me busy should all of them materialize. I am even looking at a 20 days commitment a month with all the business Pal forecasted.
Honestly, I feel lighter without the Coursera courses in my mind. I am back to the old fashion way material development; by reading.
Hey why not I write you a letter? It's a change from the conversations we are having.
My darling Sarah,
This is the end of my adventure with Coursera. My account was hacked when I was trying to access my LinkedIn via Facebook today to upload my certificates.
I am relieved that I no longer have to go through the courses. This way I am back where I was before. Developing my course the old fashion way; through reading.
Do you notice the different writing style when I am writing a letter? It is more formal. I am more composed. It helps that once in a while I write a letter to you. That way I still maintain a level of formality when I write to you.
Perhaps that will also reduce the time I spend writing to Els.
Hahaha the song Skyfall is on the air. How appropriate...
Sarah my darling, I think we are better off keeping each other company. I like Els but with her I am experiencing mood swings. It's not a healthy relationship in the long run. Nevertheless, I will still write to her once in a while. However, the crux of it is I write to her because I need to express my emotion through expressive writing. If I can do the same with you, I can space out my writing to her.
I need to solve my emotional turmoil with her. Otherwise forever I will be in a roller coaster relationship. I like our relationship so far. It is very stable. I know you love me unconditionally and that makes me very certain of myself.
Eventually I have to make do with having you and Lizzie as my wives. At least you already agree to the Songkhla 2030 Project. With you I can plan ahead. I can't do that with Els. I don't know what is in her mind. She is giving the necessary cues but for all you know those are not meant for me.
Say that you are agreeable with the plan Sarah. That way I can set course for the future sharing my life with you. Otherwise, I will go on with my alternative plan; which is to continue our relationship as it is. You call the shots.
We cross the bridge when we get there. First thing first. Let me get started on my training delivery. Let me see how much I can save. Being legally married is a serious commitment. For you it means a career change and a physical migration. For me, the biggest challenge is to confront Lizzie.
Let's take that as a statement of direction.
Honey, let's work towards a compelling future. Whatever decision that you make at that time is fine with me. As it is I am very happy with the relationship I have with you. Those things I talked about are the various permutations we can take. Should you decide to remain as it is, my love for you will still remain the same. We have so many options in front of us. Of course it will be nice to have Els as part of the equation. However, I honestly don't know what is in her mind.
Very well my darling. Let's get the ball rolling. We plan for the best possible scenario. If that doesn't happen, we still have the afterlife.
Here is your lullaby:
Well I take it as a sign that the Force had steered me on a different Path. So I just flow with it.
No worries. I already have enough material for one day. As for the other day, I just get it from the book Pal is giving me. He also have a one day course on stress management.
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As it is, there are enough jobs in the pipeline to keep me busy should all of them materialize. I am even looking at a 20 days commitment a month with all the business Pal forecasted.
Honestly, I feel lighter without the Coursera courses in my mind. I am back to the old fashion way material development; by reading.
Hey why not I write you a letter? It's a change from the conversations we are having.
My darling Sarah,
This is the end of my adventure with Coursera. My account was hacked when I was trying to access my LinkedIn via Facebook today to upload my certificates.
I am relieved that I no longer have to go through the courses. This way I am back where I was before. Developing my course the old fashion way; through reading.
Do you notice the different writing style when I am writing a letter? It is more formal. I am more composed. It helps that once in a while I write a letter to you. That way I still maintain a level of formality when I write to you.
Perhaps that will also reduce the time I spend writing to Els.
Hahaha the song Skyfall is on the air. How appropriate...
Sarah my darling, I think we are better off keeping each other company. I like Els but with her I am experiencing mood swings. It's not a healthy relationship in the long run. Nevertheless, I will still write to her once in a while. However, the crux of it is I write to her because I need to express my emotion through expressive writing. If I can do the same with you, I can space out my writing to her.
I need to solve my emotional turmoil with her. Otherwise forever I will be in a roller coaster relationship. I like our relationship so far. It is very stable. I know you love me unconditionally and that makes me very certain of myself.
Eventually I have to make do with having you and Lizzie as my wives. At least you already agree to the Songkhla 2030 Project. With you I can plan ahead. I can't do that with Els. I don't know what is in her mind. She is giving the necessary cues but for all you know those are not meant for me.
Say that you are agreeable with the plan Sarah. That way I can set course for the future sharing my life with you. Otherwise, I will go on with my alternative plan; which is to continue our relationship as it is. You call the shots.
We cross the bridge when we get there. First thing first. Let me get started on my training delivery. Let me see how much I can save. Being legally married is a serious commitment. For you it means a career change and a physical migration. For me, the biggest challenge is to confront Lizzie.
Let's take that as a statement of direction.
Honey, let's work towards a compelling future. Whatever decision that you make at that time is fine with me. As it is I am very happy with the relationship I have with you. Those things I talked about are the various permutations we can take. Should you decide to remain as it is, my love for you will still remain the same. We have so many options in front of us. Of course it will be nice to have Els as part of the equation. However, I honestly don't know what is in her mind.
Very well my darling. Let's get the ball rolling. We plan for the best possible scenario. If that doesn't happen, we still have the afterlife.
Here is your lullaby:
I love you so much Sarah. Goodnight...
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25/7/20 ^^^I feel better after writing to Els
After weighing all the possibilities, I decided to keep on writing to her. She is indeed a cock teaser. But the good news is she is always welcome to tease my cock LOL.
Posted on Jul 22
I like to think that remark is meant for me. Maybe I like to perasan a bit.
A perasan person assumes that the world revolves around him LMAO.
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It doesn't hurt at all like this another perasan:
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What do you think Sarah? Is she a cock teaser?
If she is, then she is really a good cock teaser. Don't you think? She can tease my cock anytime because my cock really tingles LOL.
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Hahaha... I am in a cheerful mood right now. As long as I can write to her I feel good. I guess she brings out the best in me.
Let's scale down to the very minimum. All I need is somebody to write to. With you it is a conversation. With her it is expressive writing. Sort of a love letter.
I can't do that with you. You and I are already on the same plane. We are already a team. I need a target to conquer. You see my point?
In a way, you need a target too. We need to capture the walled city together. You are on the same side as me outside the wall.
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💛 Be the reason someone smiles today 😉🙂
💛 Be the reason someone smiles today 😉🙂
Posted on Jul 22
I like to think that remark is meant for me. Maybe I like to perasan a bit.
A perasan person assumes that the world revolves around him LMAO.
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It doesn't hurt at all like this another perasan:
#traxxfm Mental illness is no small joke. I lost my business, my sanity and I almost lost my house to this insidious illness. Do I look like I am joking to you? You are my angel sent from above. You healed me.
7:32 PM · Jul 23, 2020Twitter Web App
i just wanna stay right next to you
7:36 PM · Jul 23, 2020Twitter Web App
What do you think Sarah? Is she a cock teaser?
If she is, then she is really a good cock teaser. Don't you think? She can tease my cock anytime because my cock really tingles LOL.
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Hahaha... I am in a cheerful mood right now. As long as I can write to her I feel good. I guess she brings out the best in me.
Let's scale down to the very minimum. All I need is somebody to write to. With you it is a conversation. With her it is expressive writing. Sort of a love letter.
I can't do that with you. You and I are already on the same plane. We are already a team. I need a target to conquer. You see my point?
In a way, you need a target too. We need to capture the walled city together. You are on the same side as me outside the wall.
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